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Maybe I just like crying (?) & advice that no one asked for.

Uncategorized July 18, 2018

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So I’ll preface this by saying I never anticipated to feel the amount of anxiety I felt once we were engaged.

Initially, it was that drug-like high that only a well “liked” Instagram can fill you with. I was a slave to my phone, checking my social media like a crazy, minute by minute. I was feeeling good – and probably damaging my retinas.

Nevertheless, that unhealthy wave of fulfillment had passed and the panic/anxiety started sinking in.

I HAD TO PLAN A WEDDING.

So many things ran through my head:

What if it sucked? What if it didn’t live up to people’s expectations? What if we are disappointed? Especially after spending all that money? What if it’s awkward?   What if it isn’t original?

So then we concluded: Let’s just elope!

This was a magical idea lasting all of 2 hypothetical seconds. But in that 2 seconds, I was able to control and create the *perfect* elopement that was so “us”. With nobody looking at me, and nobody’s expectations to fulfill except ours. Seemed pretty ideal.

But then reality set in, as it always does.

What would we tell our friends? Our parents? Grandma Ruth? What if I get to that day and I’m crying because I wanted all my friends and family there celebrating with us?

Needless to say, that was enough to make us realize exactly what we care about most – bringing people together! We didn’t need a wedding to feel the way we felt…so we might as well celebrate the people who have brought us to where we are today. So I made a decision to let go— and it worked.

Before you applaud me for “letting go”, take it with a grain of salt. In “letting go” I left a lot of the actual wedding planning to Greg. Yes. I’ll publicly state that Gregory Bial planned probably 85% of our wedding, which I guarantee is more than he bargained for in the beginning.

I was all over the vision and aesthetic, but pretty much all of the execution was done by Greg. So if you see us in Oregon Bride, gaining any credit, know that it was barely me. And I don’t say that to be obligatorily humble, I say it because it’s true!

I’m lucky.

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Grab one for yourself here.

Anyway, what did I even like about our wedding?

I’d say my favorite moments were the ones that I thought I wouldn’t be able to experience because we chose to have a wedding over eloping.

I was wrong.

Moment #1: Listening to our wedding playlists.

Here’s another thing I thought I’d have control over—the music at our wedding. I’ve been semi-storing songs of importance on the backburner since high school. And to be completely honest, until I’d met Greg, I thought I had pretty good taste in music (doesn’t everybody?). I’ve never met anyone who takes music as seriously as Greg. If you play him a few songs of what you like, he will make you a complete playlist that you won’t stop listening to for months. Seriously. I’ve never seen anything like it. I’ve given my fair share of jabs in disbelief along the way—“here comes the Pitchfork review” or “alright, music snob.”

Then one night we listened to the complete playlist of songs that he had picked out for our wedding. It was probably one of the most thoughtful things I have ever experienced. Each song was carefully curated for our wedding and enhanced my vision perfectly. I knew he’d worked on it religiously for months. I drank wine and cried.

Here are my favorites from our wedding:

Don’t Worry Baby – Beach Boys

To Love Somebody – Nina Simone

My Sweet Lord – George Harrison

Cross My Heart – Billy Stewart

I Only Have Eyes For You – The Flamingos

& here’s Gregs:

As Long as I’ve Got You – The Charmels

You Don’t Care – The Techniques

I Can Be Cool – Bob & Gene

I’m Just an Average Guy – The Masqueraders

I Played the Fool – The Softones

How Long – Ace

[I honestly didn’t even recognize any of these songs after I asked him. But then I listened to them, and they are better. Somebody call Pitchfork.]

Moment #2: Reading our vows to each other (before our wedding).

It seems like there is so much pressure to do everything the right way, especially when it comes to a wedding. We’re not good at that. I ordered my dress before we were engaged (don’t necessarily recommend, but it worked out for me). We didn’t have a wedding party. We got our rings second-hand. We read each other our vows before we got married.

And this made for one of my favorite experiences.

I have a hard time focusing and being in the moment with my partner when I know everyone is looking at me. So to make sure that magic wasn’t lost, we read each other our vows, in the privacy of our little Sellwood apartment with nobody looking at us. And again, I cried.

[Maybe I just like crying?!?]

Moment #3: Being extremely humbled with gratitude

Somehow in the motions of all of this wedding stuff, I never considered the overwhelming gratitude and humility I would feel having all of our people in one place. Especially the ones who traveled and/or contributed (we had a lot of help!). Nothing makes you feel like being a better person than seeing all of those people in one room, for you and your partner. Never again will we have that special moment.

So here is my advice, since nobody is asking:

  • Do whatever the heck you and your partner want
  • Savor the parts you enjoy (while planning)
  • Don’t overthink the parts you don’t care about
  • Don’t take it too seriously

Our vendors (who alongside Greg, actually made it all happen):

Coordinating: CK Event Design

Photography: Alysha Rainwaters

Flowers: Swoon Floral Design

Event space/catering: Cooper’s Hall

Hair: Bailey Bial

Makeup: Kiss and Makeup Artistry

Dress: Saldana Vintage

Cake: Farina bakery + Judy (my mama in law)

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My dress is from here, and shoes here. Photo by: Alysha Rainwaters

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Casual laugh that’s about to turn into tears. Photo by: Alysha Rainwaters

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Floral staircase by Swoon Floral Design. Photo by: Alysha Rainwaters

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Floral arches from Swoon Floral Design, rug from Something Borrowed. Photo by: Alysha Rainwaters

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New friends.  Photo by: Alysha Rainwaters

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Photo by: Alysha Rainwaters

 

Who the hell is “she”?

Uncategorized June 24, 2018

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So probably most of you who are reading this, already know me, and probably know me pretty well.  Hello friend! THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT. Let’s hang out soon.

But for those of you who don’t know me, maybe even at all (that might be a stretch?), I’m Amy Joy Akiyama-Bial. The full meal deal.

I could go into a long deep spiel about what the word “she” means to me, and what it means to be “she” and blah blah blah.  But really, no one cares.

Although, it might be entertaining for you to watch me try to come up with some beautifully written, philosophical reason I picked that name for this blog. Instead of doing that, I’ll spare you the pain and myself the humiliation.

If anyone asks, I just liked it.

A little blurb about me:

I’m a 27 year-old Portland native, who’s trying my best. I spent about 4 years in Austin, TX doing volunteer work with AmeriCorps, and consider it be to my second home. I miss the breakfast tacos, warm weather, and some of my favorite people; but if I’m being honest, I prefer the Northwest.  Not because I love the great outdoors so much, and not because I deeply identify with flannel and craft brews, but probably just because my family is here. My dad’s side of the family has deep roots in Hood River, Oregon and my mom’s in Portland. So whether Portland is cool or not, this place just feels like home.

I’ve been told I have an extensive collection of leisure wear, and that I enjoy being comfortable to a fault. But I have to say, even more than that,  I like to make our friends and family comfortable.  My husband and I have a shared passion of hosting people and entertaining. Greg easily volunteers to be the life of the party, and I am more of a behind-the-scenes kind of gal (although, I can get pretty animated myself). I want people to feel cozy, with a craft cocktail, and some high-quality snacks.  We take snacks verrry seriously in this house. And luckily, we have managed to surround ourselves with friends who also share this deep affection of snacks and wine, and keep us in the loop of what’s good (and I mean, GOOD).  I’m far from an expert, but I like what I like, and I’m not afraid to tell you about it in full lengthy detail.

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Greg’s birthday meal at home from a couple years ago.  Most of these recipes came from Salad For President and the pork belly is from Momofuku.

Speaking of snacks, I’m also 15 weeks pregnant. This is a brand spankin’ new thing that my partner and I did not see coming.  But we’re embracing it with open arms. Still trying to believe the fact that a real baby will be born and we will have to take care of it.  More to come on that.

Lastly, I’ll talk about the man who knocked me up. Gregory what-a-guy Bial.  We’ve been married less than a year, and friends for about 7. Initially I loved Greg (as a friend) because we could always have a blast, just us two.  It was easy to dive into a deep conversation and then quickly switch back to one of Greg’s off-the-wall jokes.  Greg marches to the beat of his own drum and isn’t afraid to talk to anyone (and I mean anyone). All the while, he somehow remains to be incredibly generous, caring, and empathetic.   If you put a crying girl around Greg, he’ll almost instantly turn into mush.  That’s why I love him.  No one else will rub my feet, while I’m bitching about how tired I am, and tell me all about the full history of Liberia. No one will try harder to connect with and befriend an Uber driver. No one else will keep a tight ass budget, but then buy the back of the house a beer on date night. No one enjoys watching me be happy, more than GB.

That’s probably enough gushing, right?  Thanks for listening, ya’ll.

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If you like our robes:  you can find mine here, and Greg’s here.

 

 

Hi guys. I started a blog. but it’s not a big deal.

Uncategorized June 23, 2018
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Photo cred: Greg Bial at The Austin Motel.

 

Has anyone ever asked you that question “What does your perfect day look like?”

I know it was asked in The 36 questions that lead to love article from The New York Times like 3 or 4 years ago, but it still seems like a go-to self-reflection question. Only reason I ask is because:

GIANT SIGH.

I feel like that day is happening right now, ya’ll.

And unfortunately, that feels like a rare thing in the midst of this busy-ass summer.

But here’s why today is great:

  1. The only plans I have so far, are to watch a movie with my BFF, in sweatpants.
  2. She lives upstairs. SO IDEAL.
  3. I’ve got a cup of coffee with cream AND sugar (judge me).
  4. Parent Trap has been playing in the background for an hour, and my husband isn’t complaining.*Update we made it through the whole movie !

And tbh, doesn’t it feel a little wrong to start a blog when you’re not cozy and not drinking coffee?

Anyway,

What the heck is this blog even for? To be honest, I don’t know fully- and I’m okay with that.

I wanted a place where I could post things that really get me jazzed, that I think might get other people jazzed too.

 

Things like:

  • Cocktails
  • Home design
  • Flowers
  • Food (of course)
  • Weekend trips
  • Bathrobes
  • DIY
  • People I admire
  • Gatherings
  • Community

 

 

This blog will not be:

  • Winning any awards-get those expectations in check

The point is, this blog is happening and I hope you enjoy!

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Also, Also, Also,

  • If you haven’t gone through The 36 questions that lead to love, you should try it. It’s not just for lovers! I did them with one of my best friends on a road trip, and it was more fulfilling than doing them with my husband *whom I love dearly*.
  • I also did them with an ex-boyfriend in a very forced way, on a horrendous Valentine’s date, and it was verrrry telling (we broke up one month after).
  • Give it a whirl!